As
i look around me in any social setting, i cant help but notice how
different i am from EVERYONE i come in contact with. its not the way
i dress or what i look like, its way deeper. the first thing i notice
is the things that are so important 2 me do not mean NOTHING 2 them.
On the flip side, the things they live for; i couldn’t care less
about. the differences always starts here. i respect their passion
for life as well as their personal definition for living. if i only
received that in return, i might not feel so alienated. that’s when
my ears open and my mouth shuts. i start breaking down the subtle
body language and meanings behind their words. my wall starts to grow
stronger as well as my senses. i hear 3 different conversations at
once, taking in each of them, storing the information 4 future
reference. at the same time, i withdraw from the conversation as the
other people around me forget that i am even there. that’s my
comfort zone. until i choose to open up. people hate me and my
ability to appear emotionless. truth being told, i'm one of the most
passionate person you could ever meet. i'm passionate about my
friendships, my beliefs, my thoughts, my creativity, as well as my
anger, my insatiable need to debate, and my indescribable need to
just b myself. most
people i meet never know any of these things because they don’t
take the time to observe. that’s one of the major differences in me
and everyone else i meet. i
listen to what u DON'T say as well as what you DO say.
whatever
happened to the art of making and keeping friends?
whatever
happened to being PROUD for the people around you
succeeding?
whatever
happened to LEARNING from strangers?
whatever
happened to being an individual?
whatever
happened to going different paths and meeting at the end?
whatever
happened to the general respect for people you meet even when they
are different?
maybe
i'm old school. maybe i am out of touch. i
was raised in the late 70's by my great grandfather that told me:
"the
ears and mouth NEVER work at the same time"
and
"Find
out what you are good at as well as what you are not. then do more of
what you are good at and less of what you are not good at. that's the
key 2 life"
i'm
good at thinking outside of the box. i'm good at seeing the big
picture no matter how thick the smokescreen is. i'm good at putting
my irrational thoughts into words, my words into sentences, my
sentences into paragraphs, and drawing people to it. i'm good at
showing people a different way to look at ideas. if not, then why
have you made it this far into my blog? so
many people in my personal life think i'm stupid just because i don't
choose to follow the step by step instructions to life. i choose to
write my own. i choose to admit my weakness's to anyone that will
listen because by the time i expose them., i've already made the
proper adjustments so i don't repeat them.
i'm
man enough to admit i am a flawed creature. i'm man enough to admit i
have insecurities. i'm man enough to fear MYSELF.
that
makes me complete.
Acceptance
is the highest form of giving up on your individual thought process.
