I feel really content in life today. Its not because of money or anything material. we all know the shelf life that type of happiness is not very long. i have found comfort in how far i have personally grown since the beginning of this year. it all started at christmas last year. i felt like my life was crashing down around me. i had very little hope of starting over. after new year, it all changed. i was looking through the history of The Good Days. i saw pictures of my kids sitting in highchairs with food all on their face, playing ball in the floor, and holding pictures they drew for me. it hit me like a solid right.hook to the jaw. Its not what we lose in life, its all about what we share with the people we love. we grow from every stab wound to the heart. we learn from every negative comment directed our way during an argument. we gain strength from every goodbye. some people are in our lives to give us the gift of knowledge. its impossible to coexist with people that do not share your core values and dreams. that doesnt make them wrong. that just means the pieces did not fit to complete the puzzle that is life. it was that one moment of reflection that changed my life forever. i want my kids to look at me as a symbol of strength. i want them to push their limits. i want them to stumble. every time they hit the ground head first, i want them to get up quickly and steady their feet. i want them.to run straight to their fears, their insecurities, and their pain just to look it straight in the eyes to say "im still here. u cant defeat me.". words are cheap. actions speak volumes and leading by example is the only way to teach. i owe them for every smile and warm feeling they have given me.
everything is going to be ok. i have a strong, positive home now. every day will not be smooth. life is not designed that way. the difference now is my feet are planted firm. i can take anything that is throw at me. the only direction i will go is forward. livng, loving, and learning are the only things on my mind. i am a complete soul with a track record that shows i can turn diversity into motivation and set backs into determination. im ready to finish my life strong. just watch.
