DAMNage
i found myself in
an odd mood today. maybe it was stress...maybe its just my
insecurities. either way....i started reading thru some of my older
poetry because i often find inspiration in the words the "old
me" said.
back then i was in a terrible state of existence.
after reading these next couple of poems....i come 2 realize
that there was something else guiding my hand as i scribbled these
poems on the paper. internally...i knew that one day these words
would mean something in someones life. back then, i wanted 2 leave a
guide 2 how i ended up being the way i was 2 my kids. little did
i know that I would b the one that needed 2 sort it all out!
i
have 2 beautiful daughters and a wonderful woman that loves me 4 who
i am.
ive
come a long way in life (not financially..but my inner wealth).
i named this blog DAMNage....because i was so
damaged on the way 2 getting 2 this damnAGE! i hope at least one line
in one of these poems will at least get your wheels turning! that
would mean i didnt waste 15 years of my life scribbling hundreds of
poems and observations on paper!
Stamina
a
path without obstacles is a path not worthy of travel.
a smooth
incline is not as self fulfilling as a barefoot walk on gravels.
just
as a day without pain is a day survived in vain.
the man that has
it all can still find the need 2 complain.
a night without fear is
like a flower without a scent.
just as the spirit can never
discover the meaning of "content".
love is a dove that
enjoys its freedom more than confinement.
and sex is a cliff note,
but the blind thinks it defines it.
a price is placed on life and
people wonder y it is cold.
and question me as 2 y i don't put a
dollar sign on my soul.
my words r here today but more clever ones
will replace them.
so most r kept inside of me, i don't have no
time 2 waste them.
the only legacy that i foresee is the sparkle
in my baby's eyes.
but still i question will my lessons reach her
in my demise.
if only my questions where strength; the world would
spin 4 me.
if's and could's and but's; the thinking mans
disease.
Foundation
mental blocked
or half cocked.
2 things i am not.
all or nothing. think i am
bluffing?
from birth until i rot.
i walk away from what
others die 4.
so much on my plate.
brain...overdrive.
pain....override
the recipe for my fate.
weakness..except
it. irony...expect it.
i consume it all.
setbacks...2 many.
heartbreaks..2 plenty
2 hardheaded 2 fall.
think no one is
above u 4 people 2 love u.
2 hard 2 swallow.
whether fashion,
instructions, or compassion,
I'm not one 2 follow.
vultures
await death. i laugh with every breath.
the good die young.
my
life is these words giving birth 2 me each line.
immortal.. just
begun.
u should be u because in the end that's all u r.
u
can't lie 2 yourself.
i can see the canvas thru the portrait u
paint.
my untainted inner wealth
Perfection
dying
slowly inside on the road 2 perfection
knowing i will never reach
the expectation of my reflection.
out of place, no more space,
that is just not enough.
so much 2 prove, i like things smooth;
while life is always rough.
it is hard 2 live in peace when your
soul is constantly at war.
sometimes the details of life blur the
reason u are there 4.
not on time, the words do not rhyme, that
don't go together.
you are offbeat, this is far from neat. shorts
in winter weather.
completion will be mine, but i will not live
long enough 2 see it.
allow my pen 2 touch your heart then my
words will be it..
Perfection
Braincell
i
can cure u or i can kill u; play with the cards that i deal u
i
can love u or hate u until the moment i waste u
I'm the meaning of
evil and everything that is right
I'm the sun in the morning and
the darkness of night
knowing no bounds; floating free as a
breeze
entrapped in a maze; I'm as deep as the seas
I'm the
producer of pain; the shine of gold in your eyes
the only
truth u know; I'm the creator of lies
I'm the air in your
chest; I'm your dreams as u rest
I'm the ultimate test , I'm the
unexpected guest
I'm the control center of your inner; i
make u a winner
and if it's my will i can make u a sinner
i
can make u stronger or simply rip u apart
don't forget that I'm
the one pumping blood 2 your heart
I'm your memories; your most hated enemy, an entity
Mr. infinity;
be a foe or a friend of me
I'm the one sending those
chills down your spine
every action and reaction that's
divine is mine
precision decisions are my task at
hand
telling your eyes 2 open up and your legs 2 take a
stand
I'm your conscious through the nonsense; your text 4
the complexed
I'm the need above greed; the answer 4 what
is next
intrigue is what i use 2 trap my innocent
prey
silent but deadly is the persona i
portray
contentment and misfortunes is what i can bring
u
resentment and torture is just something 2 do
i
complete u; i can beat u; i can physically delete u
if u're full
of knowledge i will mentally eat u
I'm the thin line between
sanity and insane
I'm your emotions, your devotions, your
pain; call me brain
If my....
if this pen was a
gun; would your perception of me change?
if my creativity was used
4 destruction; would u call me deranged?
if i drew blood instead
of sketches; would i have your attention?
if my only crime is my
thoughts; is there need 4 prevention?
if my words were bullets;
would they b taken 2 heart?
if my poems were knives ; would they
tear u apart?
if my songs were drugs; would they rush through your
veins?
if my soul was a right hook; would u feel my pain?
if my
brush strokes were banknotes; would u die 4 them 2?
ive been many
places in life, good and bad. the funny thing is, sometimes its hard
2 tell them apart. no matter where i end up in life, i do know 5 very
important lessons that i wish i knew when i was younger. i hope u
find at least one of these helpful.
1. "its not
what u know....but who u know"
no matter how much
school u have or skills u have obtained....u still better make some
good friends where u want 2 b one day! i have been in my trade 13 years. i have learned so much in electricity, yet i always
refused 2 play the politics game at the companies i have worked. BIG
MISTAKE! u can go 2 your job everyday on time, do your job
exceptionally well, and never get the recognition u deserve unless u
"network" with people that are close 2 the owner of your
company. i never played this game because im not good at being a
"company man". i know the "company" will fire my
ass at the flip of a coin, so i just do my best. if u dont believe
me...just look around u at work. look at who is paid the most and who
has the best positions. its not hard 2 tell! this whole world
revolves around politics. play it or get played! ive learned the hard
way!
2. "your mouth and your ears never operate
at the same time" ~ceL
when u first meet
someone....let them do all of the talking. pay attention 2 the small
details that u notice by being a listener. chances are....if u
practice enough listening while u are around people, u will already
know a few things about someone before u even meet them. when u
listen rather than talk....u are at the advantage. people cant run
all over u because they know very little about u. in the dating
scene....this is EXTREMELY important. when u listen more than u talk,
(1) the other person will see that u are paying attention 2 them, (2)
they will see u as a mystery which keeps them coming back 4 more. i
used 2 go 2 bars and order a coke and just walk around with my
friends listening 2 other conversations. as the night passed by, i
would b surprised what i found out when people thought i was
drunk. if u would rather b the loud mouth....someone like me is doing
this 2 u! listen close...learn more.
3. "the
best way 2 get rid of someone is 2 let them borrow money"
if
u want a "friend" 2 leave u alone 4 a while...let them
borrow money. sometimes $20 is worth the lesson u learn about the
people around u. i have let people i dont even like borrow money
before just so they would avoid me. it also tells u a lot about a
persons character.
4. "its not how much u
make...its how much u spend"
this is the reason so
many lotto winners are broke a year after they win. i know this
lesson, but its a hard one 4 me 2 accomplish. money doesnt mean a lot
2 me because ill make more money tomorrow unless im dead. if im
dead....then i wont need money. it might sound stupid....but i have
always felt this way. i wish now i would have saved the money i spent
on trivial things in my life. now im 31 and i have no type of savings
4 my future. thats a tough pill 2 swollow, so dont wait as long as i
have. u arent cheating your self by saving....u are just rewarding
yourself tomorrow when u get older. u dont want 2 b working when u
are 60!
5. "find out what u are good and do it
every chance u get"
no matter what it is that u like
2 do...u should wrap it around your life. art and writing are my
favorite things 2 do. i do both as often as i can because it gives me
confidence. everyone is good at something. u just have 2 find out
what it is. this gives u a healthy, productive activity 2 keep your
mind off of the stress in life. we all need 2 shine in one aspect in
our lives.
i know a lot of these things are common
knowledge. i just know these things keep me sane in the confusing
trip we call life. i just felt like sharing some of what ive learned
over the past 38 years. feel free 2 add your advice below.
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